Monday, November 9, 2009

vacharey kichlot hakol and when all shall end v'lo ira i shall not fear.

the world is so incredibly complex-there are billions upon billions of stories and lives and deaths and and crises and epiphanies happening all at once, that to see it all only for a moment would kill you. did you know that 86,300 books are published each year JUST IN SPAIN?! and each of those 86,300 books is the story of an author who has been influenced my millions of other stories-to think about it is like trying to untangle a knot of every color in the universe.
did you know that the universe is actually pale yellow? by average, i mean. we all picture it as being black with little white bits, but in actuality, its a sickly butter-white color.
anyway, what if all of this confusion transfusion retribution illusion delusion were to end? just stop, like a candle? we're pushing the door so hard a million different ways-when will we go too far?

think think think whisper NO NO NO not that just breathe in out in out not so fast shhhhh don't think of that obey me obey obey turn lift life stop stop stop it!!! sigh heartbeat heartbeat beatbeatbeatbeat beat...beat...beat... panic blood racing whew slide move operate pulse throb work work work!!!
boom.
silence.

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