Friday, January 15, 2010

hands on ears and rocks back and forth in fetal position.

i can't decide whether or not it's okay to be happy.

i know, i know, as soon as you se that sentence you immediately think, "that's ridiculous. of course it's okay to be happy. what is the point of life otherwise?" but...
there are a lot of really, really really awful things in the world. and i have a kind of amazingly perfect life comparatively. see, i like to read cynical people's work. and cynical people love juxtaposing people like me with people like this. and it makes be feel realy badly about my life, because i don't WANT to be the one who escapes the horrendousness as others fall into the fire, but what am i supposed to do? survivor's remorse, i guess.

1 comment:

Mountain Spirit said...

i really the title of this post. and of course theres the guilt with knowing that you've got it a lot easier than other people, but really, you being unhappy isn't helping Hati, or whoever else you're mourning. you may feel a stronger sense of yourself and what you have, which may help your character as it grows up. But don't sit and be sad wizardress