it's so fine, its sunshine.

so, today was my first day of clowning. o, wait. i didn't tell you yet-i am a clown's apprentice. you see, this woman named lulu rednose is teaching me the art of therapeutic clowning. the thing that separates therapeutic clowning from ordinary clowning is that you're not trying to be funny, you're trying to be friendly. that is, the idea is to interact with someone and make them forget their problems for a moment, make them think that there is some good in the world, there are kind, loving people.
so, i did it. and it was great.
i noticed that even though i pretend not to be, i am a very serious person. i have everything calculated and theorized, which doesn't really do much except make me less confused. but the thing about clowning is that it is so selfless; you're just being nice to people in a silly sort of way. and that's really the way people should interact-just nice. i know that sounds stupid and unoriginal, but it's true.
i always talk about this idea of progress versus non-progress; whether life was fine the way it was or whether we should continue to move toward new futures. well, my decision is this: as far as technology goes, we are FINE. we do NOT need to progress any further, except to fix the things we have that are harmful and broken. however, in terms of our human interactions, we are extremely primitive. we have not yet learn to let go of the natural, untrusting aggression and sneakiness that was necessary back when we were wrestling with tigers. aggression is no longer something we need, except to combat other people's unneeded aggression. what we need right now, as i have said many times before and will say many times again, is love.

the rage of selene

her rage was not something wild and uncontrollable, not something that people could even see. for ten seconds, selene would shake violently, with a look of pure murder on her face. then she would go back to being her polite, sweet, calm self. all the while, she would calmly and logically plot how to give the person who had made her angry exactly what they deserved. her wrath was emotionless. she was a vigilante, acting not out of anger but out of her inspired sense of right and wrong.
on this particular tuesday, selene was thinking of doing something rather drastic. you see, her father had made her extremely angry today; he had said that she would not get any treats at all until she agreed to sit down and watch shootings on the telly with the rest of the family. well, selene didn't like this one bit-so she decided to give her father a taste of her inspired justice.


i can't decide how to finish it. help!!!

i don't usually make posts that are just quotes but i really loved this one. its in the sleeve of a mothers of invention album called "FREAK OUT!"

on a personal level, freaking out is a process whereby an individual casts off outmoded and restricting standards of thinking, dress, and social etiquette in order to express CREATIVELY his relationship to his immediate environment and the social structure as a whole. less perceptive individuals have referred to us who have who have chosen this way of thinking and FEELING as "freaks". hence the term: freaking out.
on a collective level, when any number of "freaks" gather and express themselves creatively through music or dance, for example, it is generally referred to as a FREAK OUT the participants, already emancipated from our national social slavery dressed in their most inspired apparel, realize as a group what ever potential they posses for free expression.
we would like to encourage everyone who HEARS this music to join us...become a member of the united mutations...FREAK OUT!

generation...whatever.

i'm sorry, i just feel the need to rant for a moment, because i'm a bit angry.

it really annoys me when people call my generation (do we even have a name yet?) stupid. people can't get enough of saying that we're dumb, tech-obsessed airheads who have never been to a library in their life, have no lives outside facebook, and can't sit still to read a book. ITS NOT TRUE. maybe 15% of us fit the text-generation stereotype, and the rest are doing very well in the current state of affairs. i think the problem is that the older generations can't cope with the idea of growing up with so much to do right at their fingertips, so they assume that we can't, either. well, we can. actually, we're very sane. think about it. does a kid who texts her friends every day have a million typos on her homework? no, not really. does an expert sims city player have no idea how to have a real friendship? not so much. we understand the difference between virtual and real. we find it amusing. the world is full of grown-ups who on the one hand are constantly inventing pretty new toys for us, and on the other hand are talking about how our brains are rotting. we have just as many ideas, creative thoughts, and "real" lives as anyone else, ok? so just chill *out*.
g2g, my friend's texting me. bb.

the point of it all.

you know, people say that the human race has gone too far, that we've progressed too much, that we need to go backward. its not true. technologically, yes. however, the fact that we still rely on the destruction of nature proves that we are not at the technological ideal. anyway, what i really want to talk about is our social state. we are very, very far from LBJ's "great society". however, we are trying to go further. the "dark ages" are called so because there was no progress. we measure activity in progress. you see, the entire existence of the human race since the discovery of fire has been to further our standard of living. we CARE. we can't help it. this is what separates us from other animals-not that we're smarter, feel more, or can do more things, but that we care enough to actually change. and even if we don't care, capitalism is set up so that the only way to "honestly" gain is to invent something new, something that people want (aka something to make their lives better). when you die, the only reason people in fifty or a hundred years might remember you is if you either furthered the lives of humans or pulled us back. you know the saying "well behaved women seldom make history"? you can't just sit back and do what you're supposed to. it doesn't work like that.
right now, i'm in school. they're teaching me things like math, and grammar, history and science. if you have ever been in school, you will have spoken or heard the famous line "when am i going to have to use this?" usually, the response has something to do with a career, making money, that sort of thing. THIS IS NOT WHY. the only person you really deeply benefit from an ordinary career is yourself. the reason we have to learn in school is so we can *change the world*. we are all slaves to the future generations. the general human race needs to have two goals right now: shape the whole world into a "great society", and don't blow everything up before we get there. this is what we must do with our otherwise small, pointless* lives.

*pointless to everyone but ourselves and the people we know, that is.