emotions

i know exactly what happiness is. its the feeling of summer, of leaves and song and bare feet and the park and climbing trees and laughing with strangers and listening to a man with a guitar in the subway. its the smell of the humid new york summers, the feel of a playground sprinkler on your hot back, the thrill of playing a pretend game with your friends, the sweet and tart taste of lemon-lime icees. the problem is, i cant figure out what sadness is. maybe thats why sadness scares me so much.